Just want to encourage you to hold on to the promises God has given you because the intend of your heart is known to Jesus, the gift that He has placed in you will amaze even those who have scoffed at you. I know you are trying your best and by allowing the creativeness that you have to work towards a better future is commendable. So, I trust that every effort you make to accomplish your purpose in Christ, will produce results that will bring glory to Jesus.